After work, I was supposed to go to a painting party with my bestie tonight. It was like a painting class with wine and hors d'oeuvres that sounded really fun. We have been looking forward to it for a month. I was very disappointed when I had to bail on her tonight. I haven't been sleeping well this week and I am exhausted. Being slammed at work is not helping with that, and I just need a good night's sleep.
On top of that, I am incredibly worried about my dog, and I did not want to leave her alone tonight. My sweet girl is almost 17 years old. No, that was not a typo. I said SEVENTEEN. Crazy, right? She is a mix between a black lab and a collie or chow (we think). She pretty much looks like a wolf when her hair is short and a bear when it is grown out. She has been with me since high school and been through everything with me since then (and there has been a lot!). She used to go to work with me every day when I was a nanny after college, and the kids loved her. She's independent, loving, sweet, and an all around awesome dog. I've taken her with me from state to state over the past several years as I completed my doctorate, internship, and post-doc. It has always been the two of us taking on the world together. She has shown signs of getting older over the last 4 years or so such as arthritis, graying hair, cataracts, and urinary problems, but she has always kept on kickin'. At her last vet appointment in July, the doctor told me she had the "blood work of a two year old" and was doing well. My girl is a trooper.
|C when she was younger ...|
|C last week ...|
I have know that this time was coming, but I don't think it ever seemed real until last night. She has been such a big part of my life, and it is hard to wrap my head around the idea of not having her with me. I have said all along that I would not consider putting her to sleep unless I knew there was something wrong with her and she was suffering. I am afraid that time may be coming sooner than I realized. I have never lost a pet before, so this is all very new to me. It is scary and heart wrenching, but there is also a hope of peace for her that I know she has not had recently. It is almost like she waited for us to move home before she decided she was ready to go ... like she waited to see me settled and grounded ... like she knows she doesn't need to take care of me anymore.
So, that is where I am tonight, and that is why I decided to stay home rather than go with my friend to paint. I am not sure why I shared all of that here, but it seemed like the thing to do. Thank you for giving me space to share my life, both the good and the not so good, with you. I am so grateful to be able to do so here. I will keep you posted about what happens. Please keep my sweet girl in your thoughts and prayers.
Needless to say, I wanted to make something quick and easy tonight. Quick and easy is a necessity for all of us sometimes! I opted for a recipe I found for a Vegan Corn Salad Sandwich on The Vegan Stoner website. I made several changes to the original recipe to make it to my liking. After playing around with it a little bit, I was very happy with the results. Before I started my healthy lifestyle change, I used to love egg salad, chicken salad, tuna salad ... pretty much all sandwich type salads. Since I am not eating those things anymore, this recipe is the perfect addition to my arsenal when I have cravings for a good salad sandwich! Plus, it makes enough for 4-6 sandwiches, so I will be able to slap together some easy lunches to take to work for the rest of the week. Perfect!
Corn Salad Sandwich
- 1 block soft tofu
- 1 can organic canned corn
- 3 large handfuls of spinach, chopped
- 1 onion, diced
- 2 tablespoons Vegenaise
- 2/3 cup nutritional yeast
- 1 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1-2 teaspoons sea salt
- 1 teaspoon cracked black pepper
- sprouted grain bread (or your favorite!)
2. Add nutritional yeast, garlic powder sea salt, and black pepper. Mix well.
3. Spoon salad onto a slice of bread and top with another piece. Cut in half.
4. Serve and enjoy!!!
Well, that is all from me for the night, friends. I am going to try and get to bed early as planned and have my fingers crossed for some good sleep tonight! I hope that you each have a wonderful day tomorrow and keep on rocking on your own journey! Until next time, dear Gnawers ... take very good care of you.